Saturday, April 17, 2010

Kinky's House

I've been in my new apartment, aka Kinky's apartment, for about five months now … about time I shared some pictures! The other day I got the place all spruced up and organized and took some photos. Kinky managed to insert herself into almost all of them, it's almost as though she was engaging in digital territorial marking. She does tend to follow me around as I go about, so I suppose I shouldn't be too surprised. She tends to be very affected by music, she gets really mellow when I put on jazz like Billie Holiday and turns into a hyper attack cat when I play hard stuff like Jane's Addiction or Guns N' Roses. Apparently Jimi Hendrix is “follow Carol around and pose adorably for her photos” music. The shot above was early in the shooting and seems to capture the “this is my kingdom (queendom?) and how charming of you to drop by to pay obeisance to me” vibe that cats so instinctively exude. Note the elegant, relaxed sprawl, the regal tilt of her chin, and the disinterested sneer, accented by the dramatic, alert ears and powerful paws with claws ready for unsheathing at a moment's notice. Kinky my dear, you really know how to own a countertop. Thank you for allowing me to share your pad with you.

Kinky eats her dinner and watches me bake cookies and do other cooking in the kitchen here. A major step up from the other two kitchens I've had here in Manila, it has a full-sized fridge, a nice big double-welled sink, and a real oven (thus the ability to bake all those cookies, and empanadas). It even has a clothes washer, this strange plastic double-tubbed thing, but no dryer so for me the washer serves as a countertop. The major challenge in the kitchen is that there is not one single drawer. Who designs a kitchen with no drawers?!? So I have a lot of hooks on the wall holding strainers, potholders, tongs, etc., and a lot of stuff on the countertops and in cupboards that I would normally put in drawers. Outside the windows is the roof of the downstairs unit, which extends further out than my unit. Birds like to hang out on the roof there.
Kinky likes to hang out and watch the birds.

The picture above is of the entry door and the bathroom door; on the right is what you see as you walk into the apartment (except that Kinky is usually hanging out by the door looking to snoop around the hallway or get picked up, not sitting on the island/table/counter). The TV is part of the unit furnishings. For someone who watches no TV and movies pretty seldom, I have two of the nicest home theater setups I could imagine in a place this small – one in the living room here and the other in the master bedroom.

In the corner with rather sparsely-decorated walls is the couch. Kinky likes to chill out there listening to music. Here she is the mellowest I've ever seen her – Jerry Garcia Band turns her into molasses!

Before we head upstairs, here's the bathroom. One of Kinky's favorite hangout spots is on the mat in front of the shower. The pink towel is mine, the purple one (which gets a lot of use) is Kinky's – I turn on the water for her and she runs into the shower and either drinks the water or uses the facilities – either of which ends up with her pretty soaked. She's been a shower-playing cat pretty much since she could walk, and when I took her to the vet at a few weeks old for her first vaccination the vet sternly said, “don't give her a bath until she's at least 3 months old.” Oh well, she'd already had dozens by that time and showed no sign of stopping. In my defense, I never give her a bath – she takes them herself!

And on we go up the stairs. There's a little ledge around the stairs at the height of the floor of the second level, and I decided to put books around it – they remind me to read them and think about them as I go up- and downstairs. The only air conditioner in the place is in my bedroom, the door to the left off the landing at the top of the stairs. Sometimes I use the fan there to try to blow cool air down into the lower level. Fortunately it seems naturally cooler down there, as the lower-floor windows are more sheltered by overhangs outside.

To the right at the top of the stairs is the guest bedroom, which also serves as my extra closet and storeroom for suitcases, balikbayan boxes, etc..

Kinky's bedroom (she lets me stay here too), with the second amazing home theater setup.

Finally, here is the reason I moved from the other QC apartment – which is on another floor in the same building – to this one: the bathtub. I don't know who other than me would put an alcove off the bedroom containing only a bathtub, but how wonderful it is!!! The perfect place for reading all those books, as long as you don't mind a water-loving cat sitting on your chest while you're in the tub. It's very difficult to find a place with a bathtub in Manila. In this culture, people just don't take soaking baths – in fact, if someone says “I took a bath,” what they really mean is they took a shower. The concept of soaking in a tub of hot bathwater just doesn't register with most Filipinos. But some kindred spirit of mine designed this condo, and I lucked out in finding it. Once upon a time many years ago I saw a picture in Vogue or Architechtural Digest or some such magazine of what, as I recall, was the master bedroom in Gianni Versace's Manhattan apartment. He had a big claw-foot tub right in the middle of his bedroom. I thought, “someday when I grow up I want a bathtub in my bedroom too!” So I guess I'm grown up now!

Warmly,
Carol

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Cookie Monster


Ah it's Easter break here in Manila, meaning that the yoga studio is closed, I have four consecutive days off, and I have lots of time to write blog posts! So here's the second one in a week...

I love chocolate chip cookies. I love eating them, I love baking them, I love sharing them, I love pretty much everything about them. Particularly Toll House chocolate chip cookies, except with way more chips than the recipe calls for. Chocolate chip cookie dough is nice, but in my opinion its role on Earth is merely to serve as an adhesive to glue as many chocolate chips together as possible. It's a wonderful substance for enclosing chips in a neat, portable vessel that allows you to enjoy melted chips on the go with a hint of sugar and spice and everything nice and without getting your hands too chocolatey.

In my nomadic life, I've lived in many places, since high school moving on average more than once a year. It's become a tradition of sorts to celebrate settling into a new place by baking cookies. I gather the requisite equipment: a big bowl and a small one, a wooden spoon and a spatula, a cookie sheet or two, a cooling rack, measuring cups, measuring spoons, and an oven thermometer. And the ingredients: flour, salt, baking soda, sugar, brown sugar, vanilla extract, almond extract (my favorite extra ingredient), butter, eggs, and a big ol' bag of Nestle Toll House chocolate chips. Ideally also Nestle Toll House chocolate chunks, a most wonderful addition to the Toll House product line. Then it's time to go!

I end up making dozens of insanely delicious, highly addictive, exploding-with-chocolate cookies and then I must quickly get them out of my new place or else I will pig out on them incessantly until they are all gone. So now the manager, guards, and maintenance staff of my building, the yoga studio staff, my yoga students, and pretty much everyone else around me has had chocolate chip cookies foisted on them. Fortunately they don't complain. I didn't have a proper kitchen with an oven in my Makati apartment or my first Quezon City apartment, but in my current apartment I have a nice little kitchen with a real oven and it has been wonderful to get back into the habit of making cookies.

A bunch of people have asked for my recipe, which is basically the Toll House recipe but with enough subtle and not-so-subtle changes and tricks that I figured I'd put down here all of my cookie-baking tricks and secrets.

First of all, ingredients. For about 30 big cookies (slightly bigger than Mrs. Field's) or 60 cute little cookies if you want to get the "5 dozen" Nestle says you'll get, follow the recipe on the 12 oz. bag of chips. Here are the amounts I use:

2 and 1/4 cups flour
1 tsp baking soda
1 tsp salt
1 cup (2 sticks) butter softened to room temperature
3/4 cup granulated sugar
3/4 cup packed brown sugar
1.5 tsp vanilla extract (official recipe calls for 1 tsp)
1 tsp almond extract (not in official recipe)
2 large eggs
at least 3 cups (18 oz) Nestle Toll House semi-sweet chocolate morsels (recipe calls for 12 oz, my standard is 21 oz and I've gone as high as 24 oz!)


The MOST IMPORTANT ingredient is the chocolate. I am a particular fan of using actual Toll House chips in these cookies, they end up tasting just they way they should. However, probably the best chocolate chip cookies I ever made were ones I made when I thought I had a 12 oz bag of chips in the house, but I actually only had about 1/4 cup of chips. Not wanting to go out to the store, I ransacked the house for every bit of chocolate I had - and being a total chocomaniac I had dark chocolate bars, milk chocolate bars, baking chocolate (sweetened of course), Easter bunnies, all sorts - and I chopped it all up into chips and chunks and made cookies with that big random pile of chocolate. The cookies were amazing, every bite was different due to the roughly six different kinds of chocolate in them. The chocolate dust left over from the chopping got all into the batter so even the batter was chocolatey. Mmmm. But I digress, Nestle Toll House chocolate chips are the best, most dependable way to go. Chips that are too small won't be melty and gooey enough. The Toll House chips are big enough, the chunks are awesome. Another benefit of Toll House is that they're sweet, but not too sweet.

Make sure you get UNSALTED butter, or else leave out the salt called for by the recipe. (Unless you are my friend Amanda who likes salty cookies, then use salted butter and additional salt!) In order to cream the butter and sugar, the butter must be soft and room-temperature. If you forget to let the butter warm up, there are several techniques for quick softening: For my double batches which require two cups of butter, I put two one-cup blocks of Magnolia Gold unsalted butter in a small plastic bowl and nuke them in my wimpy microwave on medium-low for about 1 minute 15 seconds, until the butter is really soft and a little melted butter is just starting to collect in the bottom of the bowl. Also: You can microwave butter sticks in the wrappers (NOT metal foil wrappers!) on high for 10-15 seconds. You can chop it into pats and let it warm naturally. You can take half the pats and nuke them until they're starting to get melty and even a bit runny and then mix them with the cold half. Be careful with the microwaving - if the butter is too warm when you mix up the batter your cookies will be more likely to spread and flatten in the oven (you'll have to refrigerate for a while before baking). If you live in the Philippines and your kitchen is not air-conditioned, you can just leave the butter out while you measure out the rest of the ingredients and it'll probably be soft in a few minutes anyway. A note on margarine: you can use margarine with this recipe but while the cookies will come out edible, they won't be nearly as wonderful. Perhaps another time I'll post my recipe for vegan chocolate chip cookies. They are made with margarine and without eggs but they're surprisingly delicious. If you must make cookies with margarine, best to use a recipe that's designed for it.

Microwaving for a few seconds also solves the hardened brown sugar problem. BUT if you have a big bag of lumpy, hardened brown sugar, try to measure/chop out roughly the amount you need and then nuke that for a few seconds to soften it. If you nuke the whole bag, it'll be soft for a few minutes but then go back to being harder than ever.

Be sure to crack your eggs individually into a small bowl before adding them to the batter. Bad eggs are extremely rare, but it's still worth the extra step of cracking it separately so that you don't dump a rotten egg into your creamed sugar-butter-extract mixture - one bad egg doesn't have to spoil the whole batch of cookies!

So when you're ready to go, preheat the oven to 375 degrees Fahrenheit (189 degrees Celsius). I use an oven thermometer - if you do, you will be astounded to discover how rarely ovens actually heat to the temperature that the dial says! My oven here doesn't have temperatures on the dial at all, the dial goes from 1 to 10 and there's a little chart that gives the degrees in F and C. The oven thermometer is easy.

First, mix up the flour, salt, and baking soda in the small bowl. I don't bother sifting the flour, for fancier baking it's an absolute must but I've made cookies carefully sifting, dipping, and measuring and I've made them just scooping the flour out of the bag, and both techniques create delicious cookies, I don't remember being able to tell the difference when I did some comparison testing a few years ago.

Then, in the big bowl, beat the granulated and brown sugar, the butter, and the extracts together (sniff that measuring spoon before you rinse out the vanilla and almond extracts, mmmm) till you have a creamy, uniform mixture. Add your individually-cracked eggs and mix again until nice and creamy/soupy.

Now it's time to add the flour mixture. You have to do this carefully, if you just dump all the flour into the bowl and mix vigorously you'll end up with yourself and your kitchen covered with flour. I usually mix in the flour in two or three additions, adding some of the flour and then mixing it in almost completely, then repeating the process. The more flour that's in the batter the more challenging it is to mix it all in, be patient. If you stir slowly, after 10 or 20 turns of the spoon most of the flour will start to be incorporated into the mix and then you can pick up the pace to get the batter thoroughly blended. When all the flour has been added, make sure you've got the batter fully uniform before adding the chips - it's really difficult to smooth out flour lumps once the chips are in.

Final step is to add the chips. Dump 'em in and stir, if you have a small bowl it may be a challenge to keep from losing the chips too, even though they're much easier to control than the flour. Mix it up good and try not to eat all the cookie dough while it's raw! I must say, however, one of my favorite things about baking chocolate chip cookies is eating the raw cookie dough - much to the chagrin of my yaya Lola when I was a kid, she was always warning of the threat of the dreaded LBM (Westerners, you'll probably have to look that one up).

Now it's time to put the dough on the cookie sheet. Don't bother with those air-filled cookie sheets, they must be useful for other baking applications but I find that they just result in undercooked cookie bottoms - and if you soak them in water when cleaning up, water tends to get inside them and ruin them. No need to grease the cookie sheet either, there's so much butter in the dough that the cookies basically grease the sheet themselves as they cook. If you're using an old cookie sheet with crusty stains on it, you may choose to put a layer of aluminum foil down so the cookies don't stick to (or - ew - soak up) the crusty crud burned onto the pan. A "rounded" spoonful is one where there's at least as much dough piled out of the spoon as there is inside. So a "rounded" teaspoon is more like two or two-and-a-half teaspoons, same idea for a "rounded" tablespoon. Rounded tablespoons will make roughly Mrs. Field's-sized cookies and rounded teaspoons will make cute little cookies. If you make a lot of cookies, consider investing in a mini ice cream scoop to portion out the dough. Whatever size you choose to make, leave enough room between cookies on the sheet so that the diameter of the cookies can double while cooking. And before putting the cookies in the oven, wet your fingers with water to keep the dough from sticking to them and push them down so that the cookie dough lumps are no more than about half an inch (or a little more, maybe 1.5 centimeters) high. This will ensure that they can cook through without the edges and bottoms burning.

I find that if the oven is exactly 375F, 9 minutes and 35 seconds is the ideal amount of time to bake them. Maybe a minute longer for bigger, thicker Mrs. Field's-sized cookies. The cookies will look a little bit underdone when you pull them out of the oven. They will continue to cook and brown for a bit on the sheet when you've taken it out of the oven. Leave them on the sheet for about 1 minute, then use a spatula to transfer them to a cooling rack. (If you don't have a cooling rack, just move them to plates or the countertop or some other non-375-degree surface to cool, but the air circulating around the rack definitely helps.) Ideally you will be using two cookie sheets so you can load up sheet 2 while sheet 1 is in the oven, then by the time sheet 2 is done you'll have been able to load up sheet 1 again. But cool the sheets completely before dropping fresh dough on them - I like to put a few ice cubes on a hot cookie sheet and rub them around to cool the sheet, then wipe off the water and whatever small bits of cookie residue were left on the sheet after removing the cookies with a dishcloth or paper towel. (If you add dough to a hot cookie sheet, the dough will melt and bleed out at the edges but without rising because of the lack of oven heat coming from all sides, so your cookies will have kind of deflated edges.)

Warm-from-the-oven chocolate chip cookies + cold milk = bliss.

So that's pretty much it. Credit to Lola, Mom, Betsy, Dreux, Amanda, Jeanie, Christine, Meridith, Hilary, and Eric for helping me hone these techniques over the years, pretty much all of these tricks I've learned from y'all!

Warmly,
Carol

Thursday, April 1, 2010

LASIK

I got LASIK three days ago. Wow!!! I'm amazed, it's everything I hoped it would be. Better even! Seeing clearly without glasses or contacts is better than seeing clearly with glasses or contacts. With glasses, there's the lack of peripheral vision, and the annoyance of having glasses on your face. Want to adjust your hairband or change clothes? Take off the glasses first. Eye makeup? Nowhere near as dramatic when hidden behind glasses frames. Forget where you put your glasses before going to sleep? Good luck finding them in the morning without glasses! And I only wore contacts because they suited my lifestyle so much better than glasses - yoga classes, living in sunny places where sunglasses are so important outside and not wanting to be constantly juggling clip-ons or prescription sunglasses and regular glasses, etc. But my eyes were always pretty contact-unfriendly, gooping lots of buildup on them, threatening to eject them if I blinked wrong, and getting dry and blurry requiring lots of blinking and drops to restore proper focus. I wore contacts in high school, and then in college I found myself getting REALLY tired every day around dinner time. Then I realized that if I took out my contacts and switched to glasses my energy came back. Then I realized that if I didn't wear contacts at all I had more energy in general. So I went for about 10 years not wearing them till I started using one-day disposables after I started teaching yoga. The one-day disposables were a major improvement, but still I would usually have to take them out by dinnertime to restore myself to a fully wakened state.

So I've been looking forward to LASIK, and it's a very commonly and successfully performed surgery here AND much less expensive than it is in the US. It cost me P63,600 including the P61,600 surgery fee and two P1000 pre-screening appointments. That's a little less than $1400, or $700 per eye. I decided the last time I bought a 6-month supply of contact lenses that I would get LASIK before buying another supply. So a couple of weeks ago when I pulled out the last two months' supply I decided to head into American Eye Center at Shangri-La Plaza Mall in Ortigas, where so many of my friends have had their surgery done with great results. Last Monday they checked me out, and they had a spot the following Monday, which was the last day before the Easter holiday that they were doing surgeries. When I took out my contacts that day, it was the last time I ever wore them - you have to go for a few days without contacts before LASIK as wearing contacts slightly deforms the cornea, and the cornea must be in its natural curvature during the surgery so that the changes made by the laser end up focusing your vision properly on the retina.

Focus it did, I was -3.00 in my left eye and -1.50 in my right eye before the surgery. The best line I could see on the Snellen Chart with my left eye was the 20/100 "F P" line, and the best my right eye could do was the 20/50 "L P E D" line. Now both eyes can read the little text below the red bar, "L E F ..."!

LASIK is not painful. It is, however, very uncomfortable. Absolutely worth it, but I'm glad that a couple of people warned me about this and I wish I'd been warned more. So if you're reading this, consider yourself warned! About an hour before the procedure they use drops to dilate your pupils. All the way - I got a peek of my eyes in the mirror and my normally blue eyes were totally black wide-open pupils with a less than 1mm rim of color around the edges. Focusing is a challenge with your eyes dilated like that - they make sure that you read and sign the consent form before the dilation. Then after waiting around a bit (and in my case having your retinal exam done, it can also be done in advance, but since your pupils have to be dilated for it they'll do it the same day as it's quite rare that the findings would result in calling off the LASIK) you go into the laser waiting room and eventually into the laser room, which is cooled by two huge air-conditioning units for the optimal functioning of the laser - I was grateful when they put a blanket over my legs, I'd brought a nice warm cozy sweater as recommended but worn shorts. By this time I've had drops put into my eyes at least 4 times already - dilators, moisteners, first round of antibiotics - and more drops now, anaesthetic this time. They act fast, within a few seconds Dr. Arroyo is taping my eyelashes back and, Clockwork Orange-style, pinning my eye open with this reverse tweezer thingy that hooks under the lids. Not painful thanks to those anesthetic drops, but I can feel the unrelenting stretching as my eye is pulled waaaay open, ew. The doctor instructs me to focus on the blinking red light above me - even if I can't see it momentarily, keep focusing (yes sir - I realize that my future vision depends on this, focus focus focus)! Now the suction cup/lens flap cutter - an eyeball-sized suction cup - is put over my eyeball, (blinking red light, says the doctor, red light) it sucks up my eyeball with enough pressure to temporarily blind me and cuts a flap out of my cornea (red light, very good, blinking red light). Thankfully the suction cup thing is removed and, as I've been watching the video monitor as patients before me have been operated on, I know that the doctor is irrigating the eye with drops, pulling back the flap of my cornea and making sure the laser is focused properly (red light, blinking red light). The laser's operation is automated - it is programmed to optically determine what it needs to do to my cornea to allow it to properly focus images on my retina. The laser computer says something like "target acquired" (red light, you're doing very well, blinking red light - I am using all my yogic powers of focusing, the most important thing in the world is focusing on that red light, hanging onto it with all my visual and mental might). Now there is an eerie greenish light and a mild burning flesh/ozone smell as parts of my cornea are obliterated, just a few seconds (red light, blinking red light, red light) and more irrigation as the doctor replaces the cornea flap over the recently-ablated interior surface. The tweezer stretcher is removed, the eyelash tape ripped off (yikes) and a patch placed over the eye. Yay - right eye done! In the moment between eyes I ask Dr. Arroyo how many times a day he says the words "red light". "A lot," he laughs. OK, the laser moves over to the left eye, here we go again.

After both eyes are bandaged you're completely blind, they help you off the table and out to the waiting area. I'm glad I have had the foresight to set the mp3 player on my phone to play at the push of one button - I can listen to music for the 15 minutes of bandaged sitting rather than listening to the same non-information about the Moscow subway bombings being repeated over and over on CNN. My eyes itch. I want to fidget. The Beatles, Morphine, U2, and Liz Phair are doing a great job helping me get through this but it sucks. A nurse takes off the bandages, I can barely open my eyes, they're crazy sensitive to light, and they feel like they have sand in them. I can only see a teeny bit out from under my not-wanting-to-lift eyelids and I can't tell if I can see any better without glasses than I could before. I am led over to an examining machine and a doctor looks at each cornea, pulling the lid up and shining a BRIGHT LIGHT (argh!) for the final check and I'm cleared to go. In the anteroom before the waiting room a nurse gives me my first round of antibiotic eyedrops, steroid anti-inflammatory eyedrops, and rewetting eyedrops - I'm to use the first two every four waking hours for a week, the others every four hours or as needed for a month. The nurse tapes some annoying clear plastic shields over my eyes. I put my sunglasses on over them, and she says I can take the plastic things off for now as long as I sleep in them the first night. Thank goodness. I can open my eyes a sliver every few seconds to get my bearings, I can make it home - thank goodness again that I know this city really well and, preferring being able to open my eyes in the sunlight to having good focus, I've been navigating the city half-blind in my non-prescription sunglasses all week and am used to walking around only kind of being able to see where I'm going.

It would not be a bad idea to have someone take you home after this - certainly driving is not a possibility. I had planned to take a taxi but finding taxis and dealing with the annoying ones who try to not use the meter because I look like a gullible tourist is such a drag and the entrance to the MRT is not just in the mall but on the same floor as American Eye Center, so I decide to take the MRT. The MRT is perfect - I take it so much I think I could even take it 100% blind, and it offers just enough easy stuff to concentrate on that I am sufficiently distracted away from my annoying, itchy, don't-you-dare-touch-them eyes. A friend asked that I text him when the surgery was done, but I can't focus to text so, how very un-Manila, I call to say that my eyes itch and I can't scratch them but I am otherwise OK. I am grateful that I don't have anyone fawning over me to ask me how I'm doing (crappy, thanks for asking) and that I don't have to be keeping an eye out to make sure that my taxi driver isn't taking me to Marikina or somewhere else other than Tomas Morato. Four stops to GMA/Kamuning station and a short walk to a tricycle to home where Kinky is waiting to give me sweet sandpaper kisses and be fed. I get myself a glass of water, a glass of wine, and the delicious bangus dinner a student happened to make for me the day before and an hour after leaving the clinic I'm feeling almost human. My eyes are still quite uncomfortable but the dilation seems to have worn off and I can text again - I text my friend to say that I'm doing much better. But it's not until I wake up in the middle of the night - in my sunglasses, those @$#% eye shields were so annoying - and look out the window that I realize that this has worked. I never really looked out my bedroom window with my glasses on, so I was surprised to see details out there! Satellite dishes on the roofs of far-away buildings! Windows and balconies! Leaves on trees! (Manila has plenty of light pollution, even at 1am you can see a lot outside.)

The next day, my eyes were comfortable enough to do yoga first thing in the morning - pretty much like normal, I was very surprised to find. At the one-day checkup later in the morning my vision tested at 20/15 in both eyes. Actually the 20/15 row was pretty easy to see - I might have been able to see a 20/10 row if they'd had one on their chart. Three days later and I'm doing great. Maybe my eyes tend to be a little dry - but wearing contacts I always struggled with eye dryness, if the dryness improves it will be yet another step up from my pre-LASIK experience. I'm not allowed to go swimming for three weeks after the procedure, and then I'll be good to go.